Well phase 3 is about to begin. Radiation starts Nov 5th and happens everyday for 25 days. It seems to be fairly simple. But I must admit that with this beginning the last of the treatments i am nervous. As much as i would like my life back, I know it will not be the life i used to have. My life has changed forever. The change will be some for the good but also for the bad. I feel like I just found out there is no Santa- my innocence is gone. I now know life is short and is never what you think.I will forever live with the what if it comes back.....? They changes how you look at all events, days, holidays,birthdays everything. I think that is good. A clean look at things and sometimes that is good too. What will the future bring? I don't think anyone knows that answer but we can all look to be positive, happy and healthy.

My List

1. My kids because I am better for them.
2. Darren because he drives me crazy but I could not live without him
3. My family because they love me.
4. Movies because they make me laugh,cry ad be somewhere else.
5. Boys who wear their hat backwards because it's just HOT.
6. Tea because it always feels good.
7. My coworkers because they are wonderful people and amazing at what they do.
8. Ladybugs because they are tiny but strong.
9. My doctors because they wanted to grow up and save people.
10.My friends because they love me no matter what.
11. Cheezies because they are good.
12. Music because it makes you feel
13.Children's laughter because it's pure.
14. A new baby's cry because it is the sound of life.

See it is easy start your own list.
Happy Thanksgiving all.

What does it mean to be thankful?

For as long as I can remember I have looked forward to Thanksgiving. But not because I was into the hoilday or really truley understand the whole thing but because it was the first holiday in the school year.When i was a kid it was an extra day off and more sleep, as grew older I enjoyed the sleep and the supper. You know you would say you were thankful for any number of things but this year it feels different. Have i really at 37 years old discovered what it means to be thankful.
I remember my first Christmas dinner with Darren's grandmother- Nan, about half way thorough dinner she said she hopes she will be here next year. I thought what is she talking about...then a few days later it was her birthday and she said the same thing. We joked about all the time but I get it now. She was thankful, thankful for the time she was here for the experiences she was had.
So this Thanksgiving I will enjoy the extra day off of school, the sleep in, the dinner and the time with my family. But most of all I will be thankful for just having the chance to have the experience. I am thankful for lots of stuff. Here is my list in no particular order, make your own list...When you can find anything good read your list ad I bet you will smile.

Just a little update to let evryone know I am doing fine. My surgery went well, I have some pain but not bad. I can move my arm well and have been getting around. We did the Run for the Cure on Sunday and it was great. We all got wet but a little rain could not stop us!!!